Dancing … oh the irony!

I just love listening to music and belting the tunes out on my commute. Don’t worry I drive alone and I don’t use public transport …. I am not a complete nutter!! I also have a 120 mile round trip so plenty of time to pretend I’m the next best thing!! My husband will tell you otherwise but in my head I sound beautiful and that’s all that matters, right? Voice of an angel!

That’s what gave me the subject of this blog. As I drove through the sun drenched country lanes belting out Kylie Minogue’s “Dancing”, the words hit me, a smile spread across my face and I just thought πŸ’­….. “that’s it, that’s the positivity I need, let’s do this!”

No one wants to stay at home
Nobody wants to be alone
When you come knocking, I’ll be at your door

I don’t ever wanna stop
I’m gonna give it all I’ve got
And when they ask me, β€œwho could ask for more?”

Can’t stand still
I won’t slow down

When I go out, I wanna go out dancing
Ah ah ah ah, ah ah ah ah
When I go out, I wanna go out dancing
Ah ah ah ah, ah ah ah ah
I wanna go out dancing

I wanna go out
I wanna go out, dancing

The irony of the song does not pass me by when I look to my left and see the crutches that I’m using because my hips have decided to come out of their sockets and have their own little party that I wasn’t invited to. But my automatic response is to laugh. They say laughter is the best medicine and it is. What else can you do? Laugh or cry? Fight or flight?

It’s your reaction to a situation and the decision you make. Now some of those are automatic and some are ones you consciously make. I think with chronic illnesses you have to make a conscious decision to fight, to laugh, to live ….. I could easily stay in bed, hide away but that would mean the illnesses win. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes they do and that makes me cross!! But I do my damnedest to beat them down with positivity and laughter and singing works for me. Give it a try – I love to see people belting out a tune when they are driving – it makes me smile!! 😊

So, I might not be able to physically dance right now but my mind is dancing and that’s enough for me. Sometimes it’s a bit like a chewed up cassette tape – now not everyone will have the pleasure of remembering that beautiful sound – but with a bit of rest and self- care it can be unwound and wound back all neat and tidy again and as fresh as new like nothing ever happened!

Right now, in this moment I need to take care of me and rest. This week has been a toughy- I’ve loved it. It’s been challenging, it’s had its highs and I’ve loved my job – I honestly love it every day – it’s bloody hard work but I always ask myself “Would I do it if it wasn’t?” Probably not; it’s what keeps me going. You have good days, you have bad days, you argue, you agree, you get frustrated but you do it because you love it and because you care!!

Today I may feel incredibly ill and I need to stop and I will because my body is telling me to but I need to remember:

    My health is top priority as without it I have nothing
    Resting when I need to does not make me a failure
    Monday will come around again like it always does and I will do it all over again

And ……

I don’t ever wanna stop
I’m gonna give it all I’ve got
And when they ask me, β€œwho could ask for more?”

Can’t stand still
I won’t slow down

When I go out, I wanna go out dancing

#workingmum #jointhypermobilitysyndrome #chronicillness

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